A new chapter..

It's like driving to somewhere you want to go, but on the way, feeling bewildered, because at that moment in time, your surroundings are new, different, and you have no idea where you are.

Starting something new, for me, is a very scary thing. I don't deal well with change. Change for me is terrifying. Even if the tiniest thing falls out of routine I will feel lost and out of control, but recently, no matter what, I had to go through a sort of change, and the prospect and idea of it left me terrified. I still am quite scared, but just like in the car, driving through somewhere you don't know, going through it again on the way back, you begin to grasp the idea of it. You begin to accept it and you begin to understand it.

For two years I was in school studying for my GCSE's and let me tell you, it was beyond stressful. I wasn't exactly very well physically or emotionally, but yet I pushed through the exam period. After I finished school, I knew change was coming in some form. I knew that if I got the results I wanted to get into Sixth Form, my education would change drastically. There would be new students, longer lessons, different timetables, different teachers, etc etc. I knew that if I didn't get the results I wanted to get into Sixth Form, I would have to go on to college, which involved even more change, because it would be a whole new environment. A whole new ballgame.

Of course, I feared college the most, but luckily, I got the results I needed and now, I'm studying at Sixth Form. For me, I still feared the change that awaited me.

Sixth Form uniform is cute!

Sure, the workload is very heavy. I have been at Sixth Form for just over a week and I have studied relentlessly most nights, and I still feel a little behind, but despite the hard work, I am glad I am there.

I am glad that I am there.

I am glad that I am there.

I am glad that I have gained the courage to face my anxieties head on. It's something I never though I'd be able to do. I am glad that I have got the willpower to try and do well in my subjects of choice. People tend to gasp when I tell them my A Level options (English Literature, History, Sociology & Religious Studies) because they're all very much essay subjects which require a lot of work. Yes, this change did scare me at first but now, I'm embracing it.

The stress can push me further than my willpower alone ever could, and that is something I have learned over the years. Stress makes me work harder, because I will feel like I have to do more to stand a chance in passing, when in reality it just pushes my grades and ability higher.

At the moment, it's like I'm in the car, driving to somewhere exciting that I want to be, and right now, I don't know exactly where I am, but I know I'm going in the right direction.

Change is good.

~Fran